I Have No Focus

I have an upcoming doctor appointment. Nothing serious, just a regular check up. Oh, and I have to find out if I have mono because Fly Girl found out on Tuesday that she has it and has had it for a couple weeks. She's sick, I worry because she's sick, and on top of that she's in Washington, D.C., getting away from it all, in an attempt to jumpstart her recuperation.

So I haven't seen FG or even talked to her much, and this is on top of some uncertainty as of late. Uncertainty which has kept me so preoccupied I haven't even had time or mental capacity to deal with all the family fallout from the holidays. I won't delve into it here. It's a long ass story anyway. Too long to type. But... heavy. Ugh.

Add to that I have to make some financial and living-arrangment decisions, like, now. Right now. Blech. Too much. Too much.

So with all that on my plate, I'm feeling pretty bogged down, but not really feeling much of a sense of urgency (except where all things FG are concerned). I think that's mainly because I'm confident these other things will eventually work out okay. I don't know if that's good or bad, but I sort of prefer it to feeling overwhelmingly tense and anxious.

One step at a time. That's the way my brain works. That's all I can handle. Make one phone call. Read one website. Make one list. Slow and steady.