Melancholy, Aborted
Several factors conspired to put me in a bit of a bad mood. For the first time, in a long time, I was just sad.
It's really not a great idea to read other people's blogs in which they are candid and forthright and let you in and make you feel along with them. And to also have "mood" music playing.
And then to think about how much you are hating life right now. And how you feel really powerless to change it. Or maybe you know what to do but you're afraid to do it. Because you seem to have this fucked up all-or-nothing approach to change and risk, which used to be a lot more "all" and is now a whole lotta "nothing."
Frankly, I'm a little embarrassed to put the rest of it up here. It's recorded elsewhere for posterity, but I can't bring myself to post it in its entirety. I spewed it all out, and the second I finished, I started to doubt it and qualify it and all this junk which is part of the problem in the first place.
But having Britney Spears come on the ol' iTunes will snap you out of it pretty quick (if it doesn't just piss you off).
Meh. Carry on.
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Getting in a funk is always weird. When you write about it, is it cathartic? Or are you just making it worse. That's what I always ask myself.
But we all feel this way now and then I think.
I'm sorry you were feeling funk-y.
I love you.
Those days sometimes happem more often than not. Bein' funky or bein' in a funk. Oxymoronic, yes?
Britney would push me over the edge.
I feel ya, though. Use the power of the blog to release your sadness!
I personally prefer Christina Aguillara (however you spell it).
I'm a fighter, baby.
Feel chipper soon!
*big squeezy hugs*
I'm in a huge funk myself. And not the funkalicious kind either.
That makes three of us.
Ya know where to find me, Ms. Swirl.
You're coming to MI for Deb's party and you might get to see Hank! You have so much to look forward too!
I like the Britney when I'm blue too... But then I'm musically challenged like that!
Ever try ABBA when you're in a funk? ;p
{{{hugs}}}
Be well sweetie.
Ever try ABBA when you're in a funk?
*snerk*
Britney was actually more irritating than mood-lifting. And i'm still kind of in the funk, but whatever. At least I got some sleep.
God. My day started off like "Bridget Jones' Diary" with singing "All By Myself." This th-twenty-seventh birthday thingie is driving me mad with loneliness and the long list of things I *should* have accomplished by now. I feel ya! :)