Monthly Archives: March 2007

I think this is not a coincidence.

Facts:

  • My therapist has been telling me for months that I may not really know if I’m over my Fly Girl issues until I get interested in someone else.
  • Last Sunday afternoon was what inspired this.
  • Last Sunday afternoon I got an email from Fly Girl regarding her going away party.
  • My horoscope yesterday said this: Tune in to the subtle shift you’re experiencing. You may feel like finally relinquising a loss or forgiving someone for a past wrong. Allow these healthy expressions into your consciousness.

This is totally a sign from the universe. Freaky. Nice.

OMG OMG OMG

I know y’all want to know what’s the deal with the crush, and lawdy I want to tell you. But I can’t. I realize this doesn’t help at all. Sorry. But… *grin* Just be happy for me right now, ‘kay?

Moving right along….

Been meaning to share these words from Lainie. I keep going back to them.

Don’t know why, but I
Always feel prettiest when
I’m thinking of you.

Beautiful. Powerful.

Preoccupied

Oooh, I got a little crush, y’all.

!!!

Between that and the weather — low 70s, sunny, breezy, blue sky — I’m having a bit of trouble concentrating today.

We’re trying to find excuses to go up on the roof. I need to check and see if I can get a wireless signal up there…. Yeah, that’s the ticket.

Processing… processing….

On my morning commute, the talk radio station I usually listen to played Vertical Horizon’s Everything You Want for one of their bumpers.

Every time I hear this song, it takes me back to a summer evening in 1999, driving up a dark Highway 55 in Plymouth, MN. There is absolutely nothing remarkable about that drive on that evening, but for some reason it pops into my head every time. I associate that song with warmth. I am so jonesing for spring. As inconvenient as all that rain was in Austin, I love a warm spring rain.

My mind is still buzzing from SXSW. I have further thoughts which I’ve been jotting down as I go through my days. I’ve been too tired to flesh them out just yet, but I think they need the time to simmer in the background and process in my subconscious.

Clearly the one prevailing thought is that I wish there was a way to make this stuff my day job. It fascinates me to no end. I have plans and ideas that take up more and more of my time. To the point where if I give them all the attention they need to go anywhere, I really do not have time to do anything else beyond what I’m already committed to.

I’m full up.

If there was some overlap with my day job, it wouldn’t be such a big deal. The work and the hobbies would each further the other. Not the case right now. People have been asking what I did on my vacation. I try to explain what SXSW is in general and what Interactive is in particular.

But then that leads to the question of why would I go? That’s a can of worms that I don’t want to open at work. The IT manager is the only person that got as far as that last question, but my boss was sitting next to me when he asked it. I went so far as to say that I publish in various places on the web on a variety of topics and left it at that. Made sure to leave out that word “blog.”

I like that I have a hobby that enthralls me so much (several, actually). I love that it’s evolved beyond blogging into the ether for shits because I’m otherwise bored. I have goals. I have purpose. Granted, they’re kind of vague right now. I know I’m not serving a higher purpose like, say, the feminist bloggers of the world. I know I have no great insights on the state of the blogosphere. But I have my niches, which I like very much, and which I expect to develop more in the near future.

I want to go to a SXSW or a BlogHer and have a little more to contribute than just showing up agog at all the people and hanging out and seeing what happens. I want to be able to take an active role. Or at least be able to actively engage in the conversations. Participate, not just observe.